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more than anything, i hope you're happy. [Monday
September 25th, 2006
[ mood | crappy ]

You could be happy, and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were?
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back... don't think, just


so long sweeeeet summer [Saturday
September 2nd, 2006
[ mood | sleepy ]

lj is making a comeback fosho.

i dont even care if i get comments.
this has been the bestestest summer of my life (kinda)

but for real.. shit has changed soooooo much.
isnt it weird how the one person youthink you'll always have can be gone JUST LIKE THAT?! woo its an odd realization i've come to, that nothing is ever what it seems. Seriously though.

It's alright, i'm okay with it. And i'm really happy with where I am :)

Last night wasss a really very fun night..! And hopefully the rest of this weekend will be amazing if goes as planned.... maybe i should post some pics on here.. idk i probably will in my next post

i honestly forget how to do this stuf..
should i tell about my day?

So far, i woke up at like 7 am (thanks denny) and then everyone who stayed all night at shwinny's helped clean up.. then i went out to breakfast with the girliesss at georges. And then i came home to lay arounddd all day bc i dont have to work anymore. Andddd my baby boy may come home tonight :D **crossing my fingers**

welp, cya later!!!!!

Take me back in the arms I love...
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when,
There was no one that you wanted more

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It's been awhile.. [Wednesday
August 9th, 2006
[ mood | crushed ]

well i'm almost 100% certain that the livejournal craze has completely come to an end. Isn't it weird how things can change just like that? I remember when i used to come online just to check everyone's posts and shit like everyday and now its completely switched to myspace. Its almost to cliche.

Here's another thing thats really weird... how much EVERYTHING has changed. not even just livejournal.
i'm going to start writing in this again because i forgot how it almost calms you down in a sense.. i donno maybe getting my thoughts out to the fucking world will help.

im giving this a shot then maybe making it friends only because im not sure how i feel about everyone reading itttt.

This summer has been pretty shuweet, but also very emotional for ALL of my friends and i. BEcause last time at this summer i have to say i had the most perfect life that anyone could ever ask for. Andddd now a year later everything has completely turned upside down. I hate to say it, but i miss the way things used to be.. it was almost so easy. And now i dont even know. I don't know anything anymore.. all the things i used to be so sure of are completely gone. I have no more comfort zones, i have nothing to fall back on. Nothing is like it used to be.

I really truly want to enjoy my senior year but i feel like I'm holding myself back. what am i even saying right now????????

i keep searching for things that aren't even there. And that's what my problem is.
It's time to see things for what they truly are.
The faster i accept the change, the quicker i'll be alright again.

it just sucks......because i really did trust you, and believe you, when you said forever. ((my bad))

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i like livejournal. [Wednesday
February 15th, 2006
i need to start getting my life back on track and righting in this motha fucka again.


heres a quote that's special to me:
"I always wanted to try for you..I'd have done anything and more. But now you're so far out of reach. I've tried to hold on..but I just can't anymore. I'm tired of trying for something that never gets any better. I'm tired of the pain. So from now on we'll live our lives apart from each other, and we'll pretend we don't remember everything we've shared. But I would've done anything for you..and I still would."
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It's been awhile.. [Wednesday
December 28th, 2005
[ mood | EMOOOOOO ]

hi, livejournal.
i kinda miss you.
i am really missing the way things used to be.
god, i hate growing up.
everything's changing.
i fucking hate it.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes, I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

i miss you.
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GIGGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [Thursday
October 13th, 2005
[ mood | indifferent ]

hi hi hi everybody. I'm in Comp 11 A right now, hanging out with some super cool kids. Supposed to be working on an argumentative essay from 1984 but i'm just not feeling it today....

here's some super awesome PICS from homecoming and the good 'ole days (aka summer)..
p.s. here's a note to everybody.

if you're trying to sneak boys into a basment at 2 am without getting caught i would highly suggest making sure your neighbors aren't tattle tails. HAH!!!! good times, GOOD times.

FaSt CaRs 'n FrEeDoM!Collapse )

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SCHEDULE! [Tuesday
August 16th, 2005
[ mood | chipper ]

one of the quite rare posts i will make for awhile..

but here's my schedule..
comment if we have anything together?

or don't.....

1st Semester..

1. Physics- Slade
2. FST- Loveland
3. Comp 11a- Olson
4. Yearbook- melkvik
5. Econ- Hamka
6. Oral Communications- Santilli

2nd Semester-

1. Government- CLEVENGER :D
2. Physcology- Walter
3. Creative Writing- Sommer
4. Yearbook- Melkvik
5. Physics- Thuma
6. FST- Loveland

swim sucks as always... school is coming... and i have lots of pictures coming soon.
okay bye.

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i'm in a better mood now. [Saturday
July 9th, 2005
[ mood | excited to go homeee 2morow ]

i deleted my mean entry because i don't want to be a mean person and btw i wasn't intentionally proud of that entry i did it out of spite, i was really uspet....which is why it's deleted now.

anway here's a nicer post, and i'm coming home tomorow and i get to see my bestest's and my baby!!! <3


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June 16th, 2005
[ mood | confused ]

yea girls soccer!!!! they're going to state finals!!!

and lindsey, emily, brittany, and I were there for them ALL THE WAY!

this summer is amazing.
it could be more amazing if some things could work themselves out but,
in time it will get better, it alwasy does.

a couple pics from last nightCollapse )

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"...TELL ME YOU HATE ME!!!!!!!" - madison williams [Thursday
June 2nd, 2005
[ mood | bouncy ]

well, schools almost over.

not much to say other then the fact that my boyfriend smashed into the back of my car. so the jeepie is gone and it's in the shop getting fixed. which means i'm carless for the next week or so-ish.

haha it's okay though because it was denny and it wasn't his fault and he's a good boyfriend so i'm not mad at him and also he has it way worse then me, because he now owes his parents a lot of money.. so overall it was just an experience to help me relize a lot of things about my life. heh.

anywho, i have a math quiz tomorow and i'm almost certain i will fail. So far this chapter, the only thing i've gathered is that it has something to do with factoring. I'm so ADD since its the end of the year my brain like refuses to sit in the last hour of the day, 2 seats down from denny, and listen to pregnant mrs. balinski teach us yet another useless chapter of advanced algebra. Whatev, as long as I have a C range grade b/c all my other classes are A's and B's.

this makes me really happy :D

It makes me super happy when the weather is really nice outside because when i come home from school i go sit on my patio and yea i enjoy it very much.

My allergies suck. Yea i just sneezed so i thought i would let you all know that ;)

anyway this entry sucks, and i'm about to go watch a funny movie with the brother.


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AHHh! [Tuesday
May 24th, 2005
[ mood | calm ]

i'm getting all my hair chopped off on thursday!!!!!!!!
i don't know what to do!



math test today, hopefully i did good?
This weekend probably will suck.
...going up to harsens from friday til monday ugh
hopefully someone can come w/ me!
But if not, ofcourse Carlyyyy will be there,
oh boy we have lots of catchin up to do!

..have fun in cedar point D <3

oh boy oh boy summer 05 baby its gonna be amaaazing!

okay, i'm done talking now, have a good night everyone!

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i hate this. [Saturday
May 21st, 2005
[ mood | angry. ]

being grounded is quite possibly one of the most boringest and frustrating thing i've ever experienced.

so yup that pretty much sums up my night,

i wanna thank stoney creek high school for sending home the lovely letter filled with the amount of unexcused absensces i've accumulated from being tardy to art class.

i also would like to thank my parents for being so understanding about the whole situation.

there's nothing i love more then a night home doing absolutely nothing wink wink!!

lindsey, love i can only imagine what you went through those 2 weeks....



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but oh baby, you tear them down, i can't believe you changed my mind* [Tuesday
May 17th, 2005
[ mood | productive ]

lalalal today was tuesday.
tomorow is PD day.
Yesterday was monday.
today was a good day because i was happy all day.
yesterday was good because after lifegaurding denny came to see me and left a note on my car<3

Tomorow is the season finale of Alias. I'm excited.
Thursday night i have to babysit, but thats ok i will definitly be watching the OC as well.. even if it means putting the kids to bed a little early :)

now i have tons of pictures. this is gonna be fun :D
sadies/springbreak/bros graduationCollapse )

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well i promised.. [Saturday
May 7th, 2005
[ mood | tired ]

i promised an update to some people so here it is.

Lastnight, Tyler Brendan Me Denny Madison Chris Jewels Kyle and Emily all went bowling. It was really fun :) The first game was just practice but the second game we actually made some wagers. DENNY AND BRENDAN GOT THEIR ASSES HANDED TO THEM! but unfortunately, they are really bad losers (especially denny) and they were very very angry. Luckily for tyler and i, the boys have to buy us new coach purses! but i don't actually think they're going to because they weren't actually planning on losing. Oh well, we still won. And they lost. :)

Then we went to TyTy's and that was fun too!
But ty had a game this morning so we had to wake up early
and then denny called me at 7:45 am (i dont know why??)
And so i've pretty much been awake since then.

Tonight my brother is graduating from OU.
we're having like 50 people over soooo i guess thats exciting?
It's weird to think my brothers gonna be gone soon,
no matter how much we fight and argue i can't imagine
not having him in our house anymore. He always finds
a way to make everyone smile.
Anyway, julie is coming over for the parrrtay to keep me compaany

so this is a pretty long entry, this doesn't happen very often.

It's really pretty outside today. I wanna go outsideeee really bad.
but no, i'm stuck inside cleaning my fricking house.

well i'm out, and i doubt i will even get comments on this entry since the livejournal craze is pretty much done with. so basically this was just a waste of time.

haah bye loves<3

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April 25th, 2005
[ mood | peaceful ]

uhhhhh i was thinking/talking about this with madison the other day.
since middle school, we've changed so much.
like it's insane.
i read things now that are from middle school, and you wouldnt believe how different it was.
the way we talked, acted, blah blah blah
and i know thats expected obviously, i mean we're growing up..
but its just weird because i've never actually seen the change before.
i can't believe its almost junior year.
hollyyyy crap.

ok i'm done talking

go here for spring break pics--

denny= really special :)

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lalalalla YOU SUCK [Sunday
April 10th, 2005
[ mood | pissed off ]

Dear YOU,

You suck at life. Thank you for being so bad at it, and helping me to realize how much the world needs LESS of people like you.

<3 lovee always,

p.s. Happy birthday Denny :)

uhhh edit..
i found a picture that i like.

you guys, he has his nipples peirced...Collapse )

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April 6th, 2005
[ mood | confused ]

spring break was fricking amazing.

so many memories girls..
flight attendants, drag queen(angel), sex appeal, sun glasses, all white, JIM, coldstone, shelling, parasailing(he had his nipples peirced?!), "IM A BURN PATIENT!", "Marco Island, WHATS UP!?", elevator moments, closet monster, crazy beach walks, brain the flight attendant, pool police!!, daquaris, OH ANIMALS!, plane pictures, getting locked outta the condo, NENE's, binimis, chocolate(em), caramel(linds), caramel squared(me), and strawberry shortcake(maddy!), "hey guys, wanna hear a funny story?".. yea sure em.. "THERE IS NO FUNNY STORY, ISNT THAT FUNNNY?"

i have 3 cameras full of pictures, plus an underwater camera still to get developed.. but heres a few i took on my digitalll..


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March 25th, 2005
[ mood | excited ]

well well well kids we all know that Julie has been going through some hard times when it comes to some certain people...

well NOT NO MORE..
i woke up today and i was like why the hell am i doing this to myself?

THE ANSWER IS: i'm not!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so, from here on out. i'm over it man. (as madison would say)

WELL now that that's out, i just thought i would leave an el jay entry saying good bye to everybody!

we will be departing tonight, and yea.

Madison+Myself+Lindsey+Emily+Cassie+andrew.brendan= SPRING BREAK O5!!!!!!
but, we're all gonna miss Kaylee, Julie, Natalie, TyTy, Lacey the dog, n Kels.


p.s. mike im gonna miss you baby!

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lalalallalalalala [Monday
March 21st, 2005
[ mood | contemplative ]

i just relized something.
i haven't updated for 11 days!!!!

does this mean i am slowly departing from live journal?

i'm not sure..

spring break is in wait hold on...


5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love how i have a biology+ math test BOTH tomorow. my 2 hardest classes. this should be fun.

leave me some love<3

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March 10th, 2005
[ mood | amused ]

soo we have nothing to do today in YeArBoOOokk..

quizzes are fun..

You&apos;re the John expert!
You're the John expert!

How well do you know your JOHN MAYER?
brought to you by Quizilla

.You're *Your Body Is A Wonderland*.

Which John Mayer Song Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
^^ how special:)

i just had one of the top 10 scariest moments of my life.

the end.

10| &CMNT

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